Hi again,

so I need a help please with finding the right coloring for pictures of OTH S1. they are so blurry & you can see all the pixels & I try to make an art but I just can't find a way to smooth the pictures & color them nicely,

I'll appreciate the help from you talented people ,
thanks :)

here's a picture with an example.

rant begins part1]guess where I am ? that's right . work . so this work thing , I loved it at first but now I have a boss that just is sitting on my neck & you know this people that will always , always show they are better then you & act like b*t*h***... to move up on your account ? you know it , that's my new boss . it's not that I care . I already got bored with this work , I'm a person that needs a lot of changes in order to stay interested & now I'm just not into my work as I was ...I need me a new excitement. [ends part1]

[start part2] I went to a vacation with this guy I dated. now He's nice & all but I really don't know how on earth I always get insecure . I know I'm good for this guy , condescending as it may sound but He got good ( even though girls lure themselves over him ...*rolleyes* ) , & I felt at first He loves me . for reals . but then It starts. the scared old me that I'm not pretty enough or "smart" enough ..& it's not smart-smart cause that I know I am , but if you ask me how to seduce a guy , I come nothing to the next bimbo in line ... she would eat me alive . I hate that about me cause I want to be able to have this street wise girls have , but I'm just me . same old too smart-for my own good, goody tissue . & I can't believe I write this even . maybe that's the problem , I can't accept that this world is based on such superficial, shallow values I fall short in . I am used to always ask of myself to be the best , always 100% & I can't be at this because there are others who will always be more beautiful , smart or happy . I need to just accept myself . I want that to myself. that would be my gift this year to myself. [end rant] .

Hiiiii everyone reading my lj ...lol....

how are you all ???

so it's been like FOREVER since I posted here so I thought to droop a quick post to say to all my lj cool buddies how muchooo I miss them & to just say that I miss LP endlessly *sigh* .

what more is new , not a lot , school starts soon but for the mean time we have kind of a strike lmao ...again ... & oh yeah ! I have become the new CMM mod ( YAY !! ) , my lovely ...<3 & I became addicted to Heroes ! :::thud:::

I also moved out not too long ago to a new place , nothing too big , I still try to get used to it , I found I'm too attached to things all the time , it's hard for me to let go , something I should work on asap ! lol ...I mean I just left my old crappy apartment to a new better - one so - wtf ??? lol ...& that's it ! :D

oh yeah & Av , hun , if you're reading this PLEASSSEEE help me find you a nice present for your B-day ! LOL ...ideas will be taken with open arms !


big kiss .....

Me .

it's time again that I'll update my lj .
I just read my cousin blog which was funny & reminded me I haven't gashed in a while lol ...
so what happened with me lately ? hmm ...well , I've been to a wedding , which was awesome & of course the bachelorets party which is always funny as hell and with my family , you are sure to have some crazy moments LOL !
I drank like I never drank in my life but I wasn't drank lol ..well , only in the end lol ...but it took a lot to get me there ! we had a blast ! the wedding was awesome , lots of dancing ! good time !

school also is a big part of my life now . I have exams coming up & this guy I like which I totally ruined everything with *slap meself* *sigh* ewwwf *sigh* . this week is the last week of the semester & then exams & then a long ass summer break . the first I'm not really looking forward to , cause I won't be able to look at the boy & his gorgeous blue eyes *dies* lol ...but that's for the best anyways I guess lol .

I'm also trying to figure out what to do with a friend that comes to visit me ! YAY ! so excited about that ! I'm so looking forward to that ! I hope she'll have a good time . I want her to have a real good time & feel at home . I hope I'll manage to do that :P .

and also M'Manu is back on FF , so I can relax now lol ....

that's it , I guess ..."sometimes all you need is one" .
that quote is a lot on my mind lately .

I need to watch me some LP . just ot remind myself that true love always find it's way in the end .

haha ! so I saw this at Ava's Journal so I decided to do this as well cause i'm too tired to think of something else lol...

An honest game


1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
green :P

2. Honestly what is on your mind right now?
how I should go out with my friend after I said no twice yesterday & today but I'm too tired !

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this honest game lol ...

4. Honestly what did you do today?
I worked , I went shopping with anoter friend , ate somewhere nice ...

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
I don't know , I hope not *look*

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
we don't have the disney channel here but if we did I bed I would've .

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
yeah . people who are calm ....

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
, friends, things going my way, music ,movies , having fun - heh Ava pretty much the same lol...

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
no , no .

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?
tired , anxious .

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
no . once I had a perioud when I couldn't eat anything so I lost 5 kg in two weeks , but it wasn't cause I didn't want to eat or thought I was fat , I was too thin but I just didn't want to eat , I was never hungry which was weird . it laste a bout two weeks , then I started pumpin' pizza again lol...

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
yeah , this guy from mu class ...*sigh* He's too cute , but alas not gonna happen !

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
not really . I'm a very open person .

15. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?
nop .

16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
the boy from my class LOL ...nah ..I'm kidding , I'm just tired , I wonna hug the bed .

17. Honestly are you loyal?
yes , very much so .

18. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now?
I'm tired but sex sounds good lol...

19. Honestly, who is/are your best friend(s)?
heh , though one , my mom .

20. Honestly, do you like someone?
yeah , I like someons , I don't know him but I know of him & I don't know if I really like him yet ...

21. Honestly does anyone like you?
I think so .

22. Honestly, have you smoked?
No.

23. Honestly, do you do drugs?
No.

24. Honestly, have you ever drank/ will you ever drink alcohol?
ofcouse ! cheers !

25. Do you ever want to get married?
eh ...well, I do but only if it's right . it's not a must really , I want children more then I wonna get married .

so yeah , I'm at work & finally have a few minutes to myself . you know work can get pretty crazy sometimes lol..any way , I read bits & pieces about last nights episode on OTH , sounds good ! thanks to Lena *kiss* for sending me a review ;) . how I freaking LOVE Lucas ! *sigh* , I just can't help it , He's so inlove with Peyton , it amaze me to see just HOW much everytime *sigh* . totally Love Hil ! she's wonderful & I can't wait to see the awesome work she did this time !

on other note , that was painful to see what Milan did to Man. United last night , but gotta hand it to them they played really good . oh well , there's always Chelsea right ?! *wink, wink*

other then that I watched "October road" - the first episode cause I heard good things about it & I loved it ! it's reallt good . BG is playing the cocky guy pretty well & I love that girl from "that 70's show" ... ! I already orgenising myself on the 2nd episode !

well , hours will pass till I'll see the new OTH episode , I can't imagine what will I do next week LOL ....

till later ;)

well , since I don't post here to often ( which I should *shame on me* ) just thought to post a little shout out to you guys ! my friends , cause you are all so awesome & I wish I could meet each and everyone of you in person .

so what's new with my life ? let me see ...ha , yes . my mom was at hospital this week so it made me so afraid again about my parents . of course I couldn't sleep the entire night ! cause how can you ? you shiver inside . me & my mom are very close and I just can't think of life with out her ...*sigh* . she's just called at night , telling me she just got home after she nearly chocked to death . my dad even didn't know cause she didn't want us to worry *rolleyes* . that's sucks you know ?! to be so aware of the fact that you are here on this planet for such a borrowed time ....never take your parents for granted . that's all I'm saying , and try to make the most of life .

also after this horrible massacre that happened in Virginia *shock* which was just so sad & insane ...that really life are fragile . take care of you , love yourself , be kind ....you never know when it will return to you .

what else , there's a strike at the university so no school for a couple of weeks *yay* , work is crazier then EVER ...basically , that's it !

oh yeah ! I also watched that show "Brothers & Sisters" ! Ava , I love you ! that show is really great ! the first episode started slow but near the end I really got int it . not gonna become a shipperholic like with OTH though lol...but it's really nice !
so I was thinking of you M'whore ! *hugs*

welll...now I'm gonna get back to the work ....lunch break is over *pout*

so heh...somedays are quiet days . it's funny . I used to have action in my life every day and I wished for quiet days . now , I just want some good old fashion action lol...and not the kind I've been getting lately with people around me getting bad news & having a hard time . I want a really good day . to hear that my brother talks with my parents again or that maybe something GOOD will happen to my mom & dad or who knows ...even me ... lol...

I miss my friends . my friend came to visit from the u.s.a and I didn't see her e-mail & I missed her . I missed her . she & I used to spend almost everyday together , talking , bitching , laughing , listening to music ...she practically lived in my house lol...she even came to visit my flat mates when I wasn't there or if she needed something ...GOD ! I miss her ! why she had to go so far away ...I miss sitting with her in my flat talking & laughing & my other flat mates coming & sitting with us ...heh ...those were the days . I missed her .

what do you do when someone close to you loss hope and decide to stop fighting ? can you change his mind ? should you try ? how do you handle that .... ?

I wish you to never loss hope .

So Hi everyone . I'm kindda new with this LOL ...so be nice !
I just wanted to say I'm really looking forword for the new OTH, I hope it will be a really good one.
also, I wonna thank my dear M. for the add *hug*

Have a good one everyone.

ya, did I say I'm new with this ? LOL